I'm really, really wanting to try it out. RIGHT. NOW.
Friday, May 29, 2009
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Vent.
I'm fucking FED UP.
Seriously, I'm sick and tired of how my Mom is STILL so goddamn overprotective. I mean, don't get me wrong, I love my Mom to death and nothing would ever change that, but she really needs to lay off and give me a break!
I'm a Sophomore in college already! And I still have to get permission to do something, still have to call her to tell her everything I'm doing or where I'm going, blah blah blah. And if I don't fucking answer a phone call or two, she just freaks the fuck out and assumes I'm doing something I'm not supposed to be doing, or I'm somewhere I'm not supposed to be.
Come on! Really?
That shit is so fricken Junior High/High School. I'm old enough and more than capable enough of handling myself and doing things on my own without constantly having to check in with her. I don't feel the need to lie to her anymore about where I am or who I'm with (which most of the time is Darby because all my other friends ever do now is drink, party, get high, and/or go clubbing)- nor do I lie about anything that has to do with any of that.
And even more ridiculous than that, is the fact that I hardly ever went out my entire freshman year of college. How fucking sad is that? But of course, a lot of it was my choice not to, so I though maybe she'd give me the benefit of the doubt and see that I'm choosing not to chill with people who do that kinda shit. And I guess, "save up" my going out time for the summer when Darby go home. But no, me going out is apparently a bad thing, even though she keeps telling me all I do is sit around at home and eat. Well, why the fuck do you think I'm trying to get out more and do more things outside of the house? So that I can stay active and not sit on my ass!
All this shit has been going on for waaaaaaay too long already. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of arguing with her over stupid shit, constantly having to justify everything to her, and tired of her not listening to anything I have to say. I'm sick of it, of being so sheltered and not being able to go out with my boyfriend or friends without her calling me every 30 mins. I just want her to fully and completely trust me and know that I'm not going to do anything that would put me in danger or anything like that. What hurts too, is that Darby is hurting because of the way my Mom acts. He feels like she doesn't trust him. Which hurts him, and in turn hurts me. But she claims she does trust us. It's just that she doesn't trust other people out there and is afraid of something bad happening to us. But it's not like we can just stay in the house our entire lives. I just want my space to do what I want, when I want.
So I'm STILL hoping and praying, she'll come around. SOON. And hopefully she'll hear me out when I try talking to her later. Ugh.
LATES!
Seriously, I'm sick and tired of how my Mom is STILL so goddamn overprotective. I mean, don't get me wrong, I love my Mom to death and nothing would ever change that, but she really needs to lay off and give me a break!
I'm a Sophomore in college already! And I still have to get permission to do something, still have to call her to tell her everything I'm doing or where I'm going, blah blah blah. And if I don't fucking answer a phone call or two, she just freaks the fuck out and assumes I'm doing something I'm not supposed to be doing, or I'm somewhere I'm not supposed to be.
Come on! Really?
That shit is so fricken Junior High/High School. I'm old enough and more than capable enough of handling myself and doing things on my own without constantly having to check in with her. I don't feel the need to lie to her anymore about where I am or who I'm with (which most of the time is Darby because all my other friends ever do now is drink, party, get high, and/or go clubbing)- nor do I lie about anything that has to do with any of that.
And even more ridiculous than that, is the fact that I hardly ever went out my entire freshman year of college. How fucking sad is that? But of course, a lot of it was my choice not to, so I though maybe she'd give me the benefit of the doubt and see that I'm choosing not to chill with people who do that kinda shit. And I guess, "save up" my going out time for the summer when Darby go home. But no, me going out is apparently a bad thing, even though she keeps telling me all I do is sit around at home and eat. Well, why the fuck do you think I'm trying to get out more and do more things outside of the house? So that I can stay active and not sit on my ass!
All this shit has been going on for waaaaaaay too long already. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of arguing with her over stupid shit, constantly having to justify everything to her, and tired of her not listening to anything I have to say. I'm sick of it, of being so sheltered and not being able to go out with my boyfriend or friends without her calling me every 30 mins. I just want her to fully and completely trust me and know that I'm not going to do anything that would put me in danger or anything like that. What hurts too, is that Darby is hurting because of the way my Mom acts. He feels like she doesn't trust him. Which hurts him, and in turn hurts me. But she claims she does trust us. It's just that she doesn't trust other people out there and is afraid of something bad happening to us. But it's not like we can just stay in the house our entire lives. I just want my space to do what I want, when I want.
So I'm STILL hoping and praying, she'll come around. SOON. And hopefully she'll hear me out when I try talking to her later. Ugh.
LATES!
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Ten, nine, eight, seven...
10 things you wish you could say to 10 different people right now:
1. Quit acting like you're better than me, because you can't ever get on MY level.
2. Your loss, my gain.
3. I'm not a fucking kid anymore.
4. GET OVER YOURSELF. Reality check, you ain't as fucking fabulous as you think you are.
5. SCRUB.
6. I don't even have to say a word and you just get me.
7. What will it take?
8. Shut up, you're not fat, bitch! :)
9. It NEVER gets old with you.
10. Just stop. Seriously.
9 things people may not know about you:
1. I'm a really deep person and an even bigger romantic.
2. I've never, ever smoked anything.
3. I can probably out drink people who drink on a regular basis.
4. I want to start my own photography business and clothing line.
5. Sometimes, I just like being alone.
6. I'm probably one of the nicest people you'll ever meet.
7. I'm a great listener.
8. As weird as it sounds, I really think I'm meant to have a bangin' body, but I'm just stuck in this one temporarily.
9. I'm really, really scary when I get mad.
10. I wanted to train MMA.
8 ways to win my heart:
1. Be completely honest with me
2. Be real
3. Be faithful
4. Show me genuine friendship
5. Accept me for me
6. Be loyal
7. Be trustworthy
8. Show me unwavering love
7 things that cross your mind a lot:
1. My love <3
2. Family and friends
3. My outer appearance and health
4. Making plans
5. The future
6. Wanting to move out and get my own place
7. Improving my life
6 things you do before you fall asleep (not in order):
1. Brush/floss/rinse
2. Shower
3. Talk to my love <3
4. Check Facebook
5. Turn iHome and AC on
6. Charge phone
5 things you notice in the opposite sex:
1. The way they dress
2. Personality
3. How they act around different people
4. Appearance
5. Their interests
4 things you wish you never did:
1. Stop dancing hula
2. Stop playing sports (softball, volleyball, basketball) and paddling
3. Not getting out more in high school and spending time with friends
4. Color/hilite my hair
3 songs to describe your life:
1. In This Life - Israel Kamakawiwo'ole
2. Remember Me this Way - Jordan Hill
3. Spend My Life with You - Aziel (the local version of the original)
2 things you want to do before you die:
1. Complete everything on my bucketlist
2. Get married, have a family, and live happily ever after :)
1 Confession:
1. If I could get married (to Darby of course!) and start my family right this second, I would. And I wouldn't regret a damn thing.
1. Quit acting like you're better than me, because you can't ever get on MY level.
2. Your loss, my gain.
3. I'm not a fucking kid anymore.
4. GET OVER YOURSELF. Reality check, you ain't as fucking fabulous as you think you are.
5. SCRUB.
6. I don't even have to say a word and you just get me.
7. What will it take?
8. Shut up, you're not fat, bitch! :)
9. It NEVER gets old with you.
10. Just stop. Seriously.
9 things people may not know about you:
1. I'm a really deep person and an even bigger romantic.
2. I've never, ever smoked anything.
3. I can probably out drink people who drink on a regular basis.
4. I want to start my own photography business and clothing line.
5. Sometimes, I just like being alone.
6. I'm probably one of the nicest people you'll ever meet.
7. I'm a great listener.
8. As weird as it sounds, I really think I'm meant to have a bangin' body, but I'm just stuck in this one temporarily.
9. I'm really, really scary when I get mad.
10. I wanted to train MMA.
8 ways to win my heart:
1. Be completely honest with me
2. Be real
3. Be faithful
4. Show me genuine friendship
5. Accept me for me
6. Be loyal
7. Be trustworthy
8. Show me unwavering love
7 things that cross your mind a lot:
1. My love <3
2. Family and friends
3. My outer appearance and health
4. Making plans
5. The future
6. Wanting to move out and get my own place
7. Improving my life
6 things you do before you fall asleep (not in order):
1. Brush/floss/rinse
2. Shower
3. Talk to my love <3
4. Check Facebook
5. Turn iHome and AC on
6. Charge phone
5 things you notice in the opposite sex:
1. The way they dress
2. Personality
3. How they act around different people
4. Appearance
5. Their interests
4 things you wish you never did:
1. Stop dancing hula
2. Stop playing sports (softball, volleyball, basketball) and paddling
3. Not getting out more in high school and spending time with friends
4. Color/hilite my hair
3 songs to describe your life:
1. In This Life - Israel Kamakawiwo'ole
2. Remember Me this Way - Jordan Hill
3. Spend My Life with You - Aziel (the local version of the original)
2 things you want to do before you die:
1. Complete everything on my bucketlist
2. Get married, have a family, and live happily ever after :)
1 Confession:
1. If I could get married (to Darby of course!) and start my family right this second, I would. And I wouldn't regret a damn thing.
Summer and bullshit.
This summer is gonna be a HOT one. Literally. And I really fucking hate it. Not many ways to beat the heat, except for hibernating in my room, which thank God, has AC. But still, that gets boring quick.
Hubbs is finally home. Spent every single day with him since he got back. Loving all of that :) Lots of things I want to accomplish, do, see, etc. Haven't really done much yet. But I guess it's still early in the summer. Definately gotta get my tan back. Around the island is a MUST. And a whole bunch of other stuff.
This online Math course I'm taking, ain't too hard, but I kinda regret taking it (I don't know if I mentioned that already). I'm constantly worrying about whether or not I finished all my shit. Whatever though. Gotta do what you gotta do.
Oh, and I realized I've completely given up, AGAIN, on trying to lose weight and get back into shape. Shame on me. Seriously, I just need some motivation. I mean don't get me wrong, I'm motivated but I guess I need some dedication, determination, and will power to just get off my lazy ass and do it. Shoot, and I guess what disappoints me the most is that I told myself I wouldn't fall victim to the dreaded "freshman fifteen" - even though it feels like it's been the freshman FIFTY for me. FML. Hahaha. No better time to start than the present. Just gotta push myself. I can do it! I think.
Well I'm out. I think I'll do some pilates and shit.
GET ATTTTTTTT!
Hubbs is finally home. Spent every single day with him since he got back. Loving all of that :) Lots of things I want to accomplish, do, see, etc. Haven't really done much yet. But I guess it's still early in the summer. Definately gotta get my tan back. Around the island is a MUST. And a whole bunch of other stuff.
This online Math course I'm taking, ain't too hard, but I kinda regret taking it (I don't know if I mentioned that already). I'm constantly worrying about whether or not I finished all my shit. Whatever though. Gotta do what you gotta do.
Oh, and I realized I've completely given up, AGAIN, on trying to lose weight and get back into shape. Shame on me. Seriously, I just need some motivation. I mean don't get me wrong, I'm motivated but I guess I need some dedication, determination, and will power to just get off my lazy ass and do it. Shoot, and I guess what disappoints me the most is that I told myself I wouldn't fall victim to the dreaded "freshman fifteen" - even though it feels like it's been the freshman FIFTY for me. FML. Hahaha. No better time to start than the present. Just gotta push myself. I can do it! I think.
Well I'm out. I think I'll do some pilates and shit.
GET ATTTTTTTT!
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Quick update.
Damn. Haven't updated this in a while. So here's a quickie.
First year of college, complete. My grades were okay. Expected better from myself, but whatever, what's done is done. Come fall semester I'm gonna be busting ass to raise my gpa back up to what it should be at. Taking two summer courses. Not much to say about that. I'm kind of regretting it at the moment, but it'll pay off in the long run- I hope.
So glad summer is finally here though. It's a much needed break from everything, especially gay ass Spirit Club. That shit is a pain in the ass. I guess I shouldn't complain (too much), seeing as it's paying for half my tuition. Still, it sucks. Been catching up with some friends lately. Just met up with one of my girls, Alexis, that I haven't seen in 4-5 years. Can't believe we've known each other since kindergarten already. Long ass time. And had dinner with Anna, met two of her friends from college, and just chilled. Darb comes home this Friday. Finally! I can't wait to see him! Missed him the loads, even though I just went up to visit him in March. Still, this distance kills me. But it's making us stronger :) And man, love can overcome anything!
I cop'd UFC 2009 Undisputed for Darb yesterday, without the actual intention to do so. But I knew he wanted it, so being the great girlfriend I am, I bought it for him :) It was a good deal too. Came with a free UFC dvd of selected fights, $10 Best Buy gift card, and $10 off a UFC fight on pay per view. Nice. Oh, and I spent like $100+ on beauty products at Sephora. But well worth it. And damn, all the graduations coming up...I'm gonna go broke soon!
But anyway, I'm bout to go get all dolled up to have lunch with another one of my girls, Rocksy. Haven't seen her for a while! Much needed catching up and all that. Update later.
-LA
First year of college, complete. My grades were okay. Expected better from myself, but whatever, what's done is done. Come fall semester I'm gonna be busting ass to raise my gpa back up to what it should be at. Taking two summer courses. Not much to say about that. I'm kind of regretting it at the moment, but it'll pay off in the long run- I hope.
So glad summer is finally here though. It's a much needed break from everything, especially gay ass Spirit Club. That shit is a pain in the ass. I guess I shouldn't complain (too much), seeing as it's paying for half my tuition. Still, it sucks. Been catching up with some friends lately. Just met up with one of my girls, Alexis, that I haven't seen in 4-5 years. Can't believe we've known each other since kindergarten already. Long ass time. And had dinner with Anna, met two of her friends from college, and just chilled. Darb comes home this Friday. Finally! I can't wait to see him! Missed him the loads, even though I just went up to visit him in March. Still, this distance kills me. But it's making us stronger :) And man, love can overcome anything!
I cop'd UFC 2009 Undisputed for Darb yesterday, without the actual intention to do so. But I knew he wanted it, so being the great girlfriend I am, I bought it for him :) It was a good deal too. Came with a free UFC dvd of selected fights, $10 Best Buy gift card, and $10 off a UFC fight on pay per view. Nice. Oh, and I spent like $100+ on beauty products at Sephora. But well worth it. And damn, all the graduations coming up...I'm gonna go broke soon!
But anyway, I'm bout to go get all dolled up to have lunch with another one of my girls, Rocksy. Haven't seen her for a while! Much needed catching up and all that. Update later.
-LA
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